Lydia elopes?!

When I arrived back at the inn, I found to letters from Jane. The first explained that Lydia and Wickham had eloped, the second that there had been nothing from the couple and they might not be yet married. I quickly realized that if the two were not wed, both Lydia and my entire families' reputation would be shattered.  While looking for the Gardiners, I ran into Darcy and hurriedly told him what happened. Both of us felt as though it was our fault for not exposing Wickham when we had the chance. After apologizing for being unable to attend dinner with the Darcys, the Gardiners and I left to return home.

Meeting Georgiana

Yesterday, Darcy and his rather shy sister Georgiana along with Bingley visited me at my inn. They visited only for a little and then invited the Gardiners and me to visit Pemberley the next day. Today while there,both of the Bingley sisters are there.Miss Bingley made a stinging remark about how the military leaving must have been upsetting for my family. I avoided the subject of Wickham because I was worried that it could embarrass Georgiana given her past with him. 

oh hey there Darcy...

 As we continued our exploration of Pemberley, Darcy surprised us with his presence. He decided to join us on our walk, he was unusually polite. I was embarrassed that I visited his estate considering  the events that had occurred between he and I recently. I confessed that I was not expecting to see him and he told me that he had only just arrived in order to prepare for visitors. He then invited me to meet his sister Georgiana, I accepted. After he left us, the Gardiners decided to let me know that Darcy was much more polite and handsomer than my opinions had led them to believe. 

Darcy as a boy was nice?

Today the Gardiners and I toured Pemberley, Darcy's estate, while we were exploring the beautiful grounds, I began to imagine what it would be like if I was Darcy's wife and I lived there. Later as the housekeeper, Mrs. Reynolds, showed us portraits of Darcy and Wickham she informed us that when Darcy  was a child, he was generous and sweet. This completely clashes with my contemporary opinions of him!

Bye Wickham and Lydia!

I ran into Wickham before his regiment left for Brighton. Our conversation consisted of mainly Darcy, although we only spoke of him in a guarded way. I did not mention any of what I recently learned of him.Once all the soldiers left for Brighton, Kitty was rather upset that they were leaving but even more upset that her sister was going with them and she wasn't permitted to go. 

Have fun Lydia!

I finally confessed to Jane what I had learned about Wickham. After we debated on whether or not to take any action against him, we ultimately decided to do nothing. Our mother is still upset on the fact that Jane will no longer marry Mr. Bingley. She also decided to tell us that she doesn't like Collins and Charlotte's marriage. Lydia was extremely happy that she was invited to stay the summer in Brighton, where the soldiers will be, and our father allowed her to go. I think he only let her go because he believes that the colonel she will be staying with will keep her out any trouble. 

Finally Home

 I stayed with the Gardiners for a few days. Jane and I traveled home in our father's coach with Catherine and Lydia. The only thing the two of them could talk about  were soldiers. Both of them wish to stay in Brighton for the summer as to be close to the soldiers. I also learned that  Wickham is no longer interested in Miss King. After we had dinner with the Lucases, Lydia insisted that all the girls go to Meryton in order to see the officers. As I didn't want to see Wickham, I refused to go.

Words of Goodbye?

A week ago, Darcy and the Colonel left Rosings, I am leaving today despite Lady Catherine's attempt to have me stay for another two weeks. Could you imagine me staying even longer?  Before I left my cousin, Collins decided that I needed to know that him and Charlotte were a perfect match, which was obviously an overstatement. He also had the audacity to tell me that he hopes I one day enjoy the same amount of happiness in marriage as he does. 

The Letter

I went for a walk around the park. After noticing Mr. Darcy, I was about to move on again when he called after me; he handed me a letter and quickly left. The letter was written in a very close hand. The letter explained his motives behind ending the chance of loving between my sister and his close friend; Darcy also explained what happened between Wickham and himself. After Darcy provided for Wickham following the death of his father, Wickham tried to elope with Georgiana so he could have her fortune. I have lost my trust in Wickham and I am unsure of how I feel about Darcy.

I will NOT marry Darcy.

Darcy just asked for my hand in marriage in what could have been the worst proposal ever. He said and I quote, "In vain I have struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you." He went on to say that it was against his character and his beliefs to love me, as if I should have been pleased with his disappointment in falling in love with me, someone who is socially inferior to him. Enraged at him, I asked him if he had actually been apart of Mr.Bingley leaving of Jane which he admitted to. So of course I told him that I would never marry him, which in turn, made my mother upset.

Colonel Clues Me In

While on one my many walks through the countryside, I met Colonel Fitzwilliam. The two of talked for a little when he mention that Darcy claimed to have just recently saved a friend of his, whom I can almost guarantee to be Mr.Bingley, from an imprudent marriage, which I reason was to be my dear sister Jane. I cannot stand the fact that Darcy may have very well been the cause of Jane unhappiness.

Playing the Piano-forte

Today while at Rosings, Colonel Fitzwilliam seemed to be paying me a great deal of attention. Shortly after we finished the repast, Colonel Fitzwilliam reminded me that I promised to play for him. Darcy joined me by the instrument shortly after I began playing. In an attempt to tease him, I brought up his behavior at the Meryton Ball and how he blatantly refused to dance with me. Lady Catherine told me that I need more practice at the piano-forte, and I had to continue playing until the night was over.